Is it worth it?

how should one feel, in the face of it all?

“Mr. Johnson, how are you feeling today?”

The weather is good Ms. Brown, so I am good.

“And if it were bad? Would you be miserable?”

Depends

“On what?”

How much ive had to drink

“But if we are fully dependant on external circumstance, can we truly ever be happy?”

If you stop drinking then of course not.

“Is there no other thing we can hold on to? That is with us - giving some consistency to life?”

But if im with it, really with it, then like a seed on the waves, nature itself moves me. Is that not Zen!?

“i suppose so… never thought of it like that. Fuck”

but i think you meant… why not go further? Why be deterred by life. Not only will i inevitabky die… but even the few good friends and family will too… the ones with undying love and affection. The few…

“ya! Thats what i meant. You lonely fuck.”

And dead one. And injured one. And hurt one… all is over soon enough.

But in this moment, this few next minutes, ill have a beer and a reprieve from it all…